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Monday, January 11, 2010
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
Mon-solutions 2010
frankly, there is no such word as above i mean if spelt joint like that. but googling it shows some results. interestingly, very scientific related. so scientific until i have no interest to read up on it.
there is also company name Monsolution (Metro Oriented Network solutions) which i gather deals with network related issues of which when i accessed the home page, the links are not active. interestingly, "mon" is also defined as a tool for monitoring the availability of services, and sending alerts on prescribed events. somehow related to some form of my work scope to a certain extend.
anyway, i am not exactly interested in science, nor am i trying to further analyse the work which i do everyday. actually, it is in relation to my resolutions for 2010. i am thinking of a more creative way for me to fulfill my 2010 resolution list.
it's quite unusual of me to stop blogging for the year and reflect and then make plans for the new year. perhaps what happened in 2009 made me want to reconsider how i want to do things for 2010. as i was thinking of my entries for 2010 list, i thought and thought and realised something.
have you ever seriously look at the word 'RESOLUTION'?
before i posted this entry, i looked up the dictionary to look into the meaning, but then, it didnt have the meaning which i thought was staring me in the eye. who doesn't know what resolutions means right? who also doesnt know that we usually don't keep to what we resolve to do for the year right. i found the answer, i don't know if you'd agree with me..
look at the words, REpeat, REassign, REwind, REvisit, REplay.. what are the similarity other than the two alphabets 'R' and 'E'? they are verbs which requires actions to be done again. ie, to go back again to do the same thing. does that answer you why we have to list out the same list year after year? hmm.. it does for me. we are planning to RE do our TO DO list for the next year.. no wonder some people gave up planning what to do. we have been embedded with the thought in our subconcious mind that we need to repeat the same round of action next year. makes sense?
so this year, instead of listing my resolutions, i decided to come up with a TO DO list for each month and call it MON-SOLUTIONS: solutions for each month to make life worth living and money last longer. in short a lazy person who has a lower level of determination so that somethings will work out for the year.
the list will be listed according to Spending and Life and each heading will have 5 items max. i am not sure if it's greedy or it's more helpful, in any case maybe it's easier. supposedly, if everything goes well by the last couple of days of each month, i should have my list ready for the next month. which makes this a mandatory 'TO DO' item if i want to make my next month worth living.
to start off for JAN 2010, my MON SOLUTIONS are:
Mandatory:
Put MON-SOLUTION from thoughts to script
Come up with Jan MON-SOLUTION list for
LIFE
1) Drink a lot of water - finish at least 1 bottle of water during work.
2) Pack my room by month end
3) Rest early - at least 3 times a week and by 11pm
4) Write a letter
5) Eat right - at least 1 fruit juice and some fruits 5 days a week
SPENDING
1) Shop for CNY clothes in G market
2) Can only purchase 1 pair of shoes below $50
3) Big item purchases will be two good quality pillows and a quilt
4) Clear all debts before CNY
5) Credit card expenditure should not exceed $600 inclusive of instalment item
Wonder how many i can strike off by the end of the month! well, we will know in another 25 days? I think i will put it in my iPhone as well to track.
there is also company name Monsolution (Metro Oriented Network solutions) which i gather deals with network related issues of which when i accessed the home page, the links are not active. interestingly, "mon" is also defined as a tool for monitoring the availability of services, and sending alerts on prescribed events. somehow related to some form of my work scope to a certain extend.
anyway, i am not exactly interested in science, nor am i trying to further analyse the work which i do everyday. actually, it is in relation to my resolutions for 2010. i am thinking of a more creative way for me to fulfill my 2010 resolution list.
it's quite unusual of me to stop blogging for the year and reflect and then make plans for the new year. perhaps what happened in 2009 made me want to reconsider how i want to do things for 2010. as i was thinking of my entries for 2010 list, i thought and thought and realised something.
have you ever seriously look at the word 'RESOLUTION'?
before i posted this entry, i looked up the dictionary to look into the meaning, but then, it didnt have the meaning which i thought was staring me in the eye. who doesn't know what resolutions means right? who also doesnt know that we usually don't keep to what we resolve to do for the year right. i found the answer, i don't know if you'd agree with me..
look at the words, REpeat, REassign, REwind, REvisit, REplay.. what are the similarity other than the two alphabets 'R' and 'E'? they are verbs which requires actions to be done again. ie, to go back again to do the same thing. does that answer you why we have to list out the same list year after year? hmm.. it does for me. we are planning to RE do our TO DO list for the next year.. no wonder some people gave up planning what to do. we have been embedded with the thought in our subconcious mind that we need to repeat the same round of action next year. makes sense?
so this year, instead of listing my resolutions, i decided to come up with a TO DO list for each month and call it MON-SOLUTIONS: solutions for each month to make life worth living and money last longer. in short a lazy person who has a lower level of determination so that somethings will work out for the year.
the list will be listed according to Spending and Life and each heading will have 5 items max. i am not sure if it's greedy or it's more helpful, in any case maybe it's easier. supposedly, if everything goes well by the last couple of days of each month, i should have my list ready for the next month. which makes this a mandatory 'TO DO' item if i want to make my next month worth living.
to start off for JAN 2010, my MON SOLUTIONS are:
Mandatory:
Put MON-SOLUTION from thoughts to script
Come up with Jan MON-SOLUTION list for
LIFE
1) Drink a lot of water - finish at least 1 bottle of water during work.
2) Pack my room by month end
3) Rest early - at least 3 times a week and by 11pm
4) Write a letter
5) Eat right - at least 1 fruit juice and some fruits 5 days a week
SPENDING
1) Shop for CNY clothes in G market
2) Can only purchase 1 pair of shoes below $50
3) Big item purchases will be two good quality pillows and a quilt
4) Clear all debts before CNY
5) Credit card expenditure should not exceed $600 inclusive of instalment item
Wonder how many i can strike off by the end of the month! well, we will know in another 25 days? I think i will put it in my iPhone as well to track.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Another MAC product
well, this came a bit late. it was after much hesitation and a lot of thoughts. finally, thoughts became action and yeah, i got the Iphone. well, it was with a few regrets and bad timing and a very long waiting ordeal. when i finally got the white, i wasn't as excited as i was on last monday.
see, the ordeal was that the telco sent me the wrong colour. they sent me the black instead of the white which i refused to accept coz the black will definitely not go well together with the pink cover i bought online. as much as i try to psycho myself it will be both unique and erm cool, i just couldnt accept it. so it took the telco from Monday to Friday so that i could get the correct colour. i will not dwell further but i am amazed with my level of patience. Gawd, one whole year of perfecting the art of being patient has turned me to another person who didnt reap what she worked towards being patient for. i was now being patient for the wrong reason. darn, this is freaking bad. i am still damn sore about it.
anyway, i always like how Apple package their products. i think it's damn cool. below the pics of what it is like inside the iphone and how the pink cover looked on my phone :D
see, the ordeal was that the telco sent me the wrong colour. they sent me the black instead of the white which i refused to accept coz the black will definitely not go well together with the pink cover i bought online. as much as i try to psycho myself it will be both unique and erm cool, i just couldnt accept it. so it took the telco from Monday to Friday so that i could get the correct colour. i will not dwell further but i am amazed with my level of patience. Gawd, one whole year of perfecting the art of being patient has turned me to another person who didnt reap what she worked towards being patient for. i was now being patient for the wrong reason. darn, this is freaking bad. i am still damn sore about it.
anyway, i always like how Apple package their products. i think it's damn cool. below the pics of what it is like inside the iphone and how the pink cover looked on my phone :D
the title says it all
before the plastic was removed
white against white
what lies beneath? pull up the tab
cords and more cords
the 'key' to start the phone ringing
let the fingers do the work first
cover it pink!
additional protection
even got protection for the logo
put on the screen protector 99.5% close to perfection..
Sunday, December 06, 2009
Question
how do you say goodbye to happy memories when they become so bloody painful and unbearable.. leaving only excruciating pain when they unconsciously creep into your thoughts?
someone teach me the trick to this.
your advise would be eternally appreciated.
gawd.. i think i am kinda being influenced by the movie i watched on friday.. haha eternally.. woah..
someone teach me the trick to this.
your advise would be eternally appreciated.
gawd.. i think i am kinda being influenced by the movie i watched on friday.. haha eternally.. woah..
Saturday, October 10, 2009
knock knock
got that on my bedroom door two nights ago. it was my bro and he asked this.
anyway, i did agree to help him take but i am apprehensive. because no such experience. okie, i do bring my p+s camera to weddings and occasionally take okie photos. but hello, we are talking about my bro's wedding here! what if i make a mess out of it? What if i didn't capture the wonderful moments? what if everything turns out crappy? gee.. there were a lot of 'what ifs'.
i think i need to practise, but no time to practise. the ROM is like 2 weeks later. and i'm like woah... interestingly, i don't think i'd be wearing a dress. how can a photographer wear dress and walk around. hmm.. either that, or i'd still wear a dress and be a spunky photographer..
perhaps i should start researching and look at how people take the photos and experiment from there..
hmm.. hmm.. i had always wanted to do something like that, but feeling the pressure now.. haha
bro: how's your SLR? good?
me: hmm.. ok, like that lor.. (looked at him a bit stunned)
me: hmm.. ok, like that lor.. (looked at him a bit stunned)
bro: so you can be my photographer for my ROM?
me: huh.. (even more stunned this time) err.. you see my pics on my blog and facebook.. what you think?
bro: ok lah, so you help me to take and be my photographer for the day lah.
me: errr.. i thought you got a very good photographer, your ex boss?
anyway, i did agree to help him take but i am apprehensive. because no such experience. okie, i do bring my p+s camera to weddings and occasionally take okie photos. but hello, we are talking about my bro's wedding here! what if i make a mess out of it? What if i didn't capture the wonderful moments? what if everything turns out crappy? gee.. there were a lot of 'what ifs'.
i think i need to practise, but no time to practise. the ROM is like 2 weeks later. and i'm like woah... interestingly, i don't think i'd be wearing a dress. how can a photographer wear dress and walk around. hmm.. either that, or i'd still wear a dress and be a spunky photographer..
perhaps i should start researching and look at how people take the photos and experiment from there..
hmm.. hmm.. i had always wanted to do something like that, but feeling the pressure now.. haha
take a look at this for a start? can qualify??
Thursday, October 08, 2009
超极无敌的累！！
嗨，今天回到家的时后以经close to 12am le.
sighz, initially still wanted to leave early to go chinatown and get my stuff, but unfortunately, forgot that i had a late evening meeting.
meet 来 meet 去, by the time meeting ended already 7 plus pm. BTHz!! when went back to read my emails and try to finished the unfinished stuff and before i realised already 11 ish.
what i BTH is that my intial thought to do the test by myself is correct de. but too bad, too busy, can't do it. ended up i have to provide so many details to the person who is helping i might as well do it myself.
in the end and coz i really BTH, i sent a super straight forward email.
bo bian liao.
haiz.. now i am even more super duper sian.
sometimes no matter how you rush, people don't feel the urgency. now everything is in the limelight, that's where everyone such to do things urgently and point fingers where ever possible.
...
sighz, initially still wanted to leave early to go chinatown and get my stuff, but unfortunately, forgot that i had a late evening meeting.
meet 来 meet 去, by the time meeting ended already 7 plus pm. BTHz!! when went back to read my emails and try to finished the unfinished stuff and before i realised already 11 ish.
what i BTH is that my intial thought to do the test by myself is correct de. but too bad, too busy, can't do it. ended up i have to provide so many details to the person who is helping i might as well do it myself.
in the end and coz i really BTH, i sent a super straight forward email.
bo bian liao.
haiz.. now i am even more super duper sian.
sometimes no matter how you rush, people don't feel the urgency. now everything is in the limelight, that's where everyone such to do things urgently and point fingers where ever possible.
...
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
a camera beckons
hmm.. haven't been interested in techie toys lately except for the iphone. but i'm too lazy to fill up forms and cant imagine holding two phones at one time. i like my current number and i have more than a half a year for the starhub contract to ends.. damn sian. my current phone is definitely unexciting but it serves it's basic functionality. anyway, i heard a colleague waited like 3 months before getting that phone, so doesn't mean that when i hand in the forms i'd get my toy immediately. well, i guess we are talking about a pretty good corporate deal.. so.. can't hiam much.
anyway, that's until when i fill up the form and submit. am trying to think if i'd have any major purchase, can't think of any. seems like flying away is close to zlich for the time being, though still hopeful.. in any case, hope is a very tiring feeling to have lately.
read the papers on Sun and saw the Canon ixus 200 IS. the colour caught me, hmm but on a closer look, not that happening except probably for the Pink one. the 120 IS looks more slick, but wellz, i don't think it's as power pack as the 200 IS.
touch screen, 12.1 mgpx, 5x zoom and 3 inch LCD screen. sounds like all good in a compact camera. watched the video in hardware zone, seems good to hold on the hands and not bulky at all. that also means easy in the handbags and my pockets.
cool! plus 22 scenes to choose from and anti shake feature etc.. hmm.. definitely a good choice! plus price not that ex, CH told me got possibility to trade in.
i wanted to change coz my p+s canon ixus 950 IS is making a lot of 'noise'! the pics i take these days can see it's quite noisy. a bit upsetting. plus certain lightings never get good photos. hmm.. maybe it's me, maybe it's the cam.. haha guess it depends on time, day and moment.
well, it's probably an excuse.
but i will tu to get it. probably end of the year. see how it goes.
errrnn then again, the peak hour advertising is not doing me any favor.
aiyah, see how lah.. maybe i just need a new toy to tide over this sian period..
anyway, that's until when i fill up the form and submit. am trying to think if i'd have any major purchase, can't think of any. seems like flying away is close to zlich for the time being, though still hopeful.. in any case, hope is a very tiring feeling to have lately.
read the papers on Sun and saw the Canon ixus 200 IS. the colour caught me, hmm but on a closer look, not that happening except probably for the Pink one. the 120 IS looks more slick, but wellz, i don't think it's as power pack as the 200 IS.
touch screen, 12.1 mgpx, 5x zoom and 3 inch LCD screen. sounds like all good in a compact camera. watched the video in hardware zone, seems good to hold on the hands and not bulky at all. that also means easy in the handbags and my pockets.
cool! plus 22 scenes to choose from and anti shake feature etc.. hmm.. definitely a good choice! plus price not that ex, CH told me got possibility to trade in.
i wanted to change coz my p+s canon ixus 950 IS is making a lot of 'noise'! the pics i take these days can see it's quite noisy. a bit upsetting. plus certain lightings never get good photos. hmm.. maybe it's me, maybe it's the cam.. haha guess it depends on time, day and moment.
well, it's probably an excuse.
but i will tu to get it. probably end of the year. see how it goes.
errrnn then again, the peak hour advertising is not doing me any favor.
aiyah, see how lah.. maybe i just need a new toy to tide over this sian period..
Monday, October 05, 2009
Barcook raisin cream cheese bun
hwah!!! happy like siao! Bro just got me the Barcook raisin cream cheese bun!
looks like 明天的早餐有着落了！！！
although it's not going to be piping hot, occasions like these are hard to come by.
hehe!! Yay!! good start to tomorrow i hope!!
bro mentioned that these days the hong lim branch churns out the buns never endingly.. hmm.. that's cool!
wonder when will my next visit be... hmmm..
anyway 2 raisin cream cheese buns to devour tomorrow!!
YUM YUMs :)!!!
looks like 明天的早餐有着落了！！！
although it's not going to be piping hot, occasions like these are hard to come by.
hehe!! Yay!! good start to tomorrow i hope!!
bro mentioned that these days the hong lim branch churns out the buns never endingly.. hmm.. that's cool!
wonder when will my next visit be... hmmm..
anyway 2 raisin cream cheese buns to devour tomorrow!!
YUM YUMs :)!!!
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
拜拜
i didnt go 拜拜 this morning, simply because i was late this morning. not late as in super late, just erm missed the bus at the time kind of late. well, i should have 拜 i coz i ended up waiting about 10 mins for the next bus. erm, that was also because i refused to board the stupid 'new age' bus for 196 confirm no place to sit and sleep. so i waited. darn, i should have 拜拜 before walking to the bus stop.
anyway, i contemplated to 拜 again when i came back, but didn't. suddenly i was thinking, should i 上一炷香or 3. in the end in order not to anger the 神, i decided to get my facts right and tune my thoughts first before anyhow go and 拜 .
okay, tomorrow i try since it's TOTO day.. hmm.. yah somehow keep thinking of that TOTO money. maybe soon it will be mine..
ok, promise the next entry about TOTO will be either months away or i actually strike the prize money :D!
anyway, i contemplated to 拜 again when i came back, but didn't. suddenly i was thinking, should i 上一炷香or 3. in the end in order not to anger the 神, i decided to get my facts right and tune my thoughts first before anyhow go and 拜 .
okay, tomorrow i try since it's TOTO day.. hmm.. yah somehow keep thinking of that TOTO money. maybe soon it will be mine..
ok, promise the next entry about TOTO will be either months away or i actually strike the prize money :D!
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
七月的 void deck神台
500th post and it's the seventh month don't know how many days liao.
i think starting tomorrow morning, i must start to go to the void deck 神台 to 拜拜。must 拜 for the following.
好的来，坏的去！
1) Everything better go smoothly with the testing - as is now, struggling like mad
2) Lesser meetings, coz they can be super brain drain tiring!
oh well, who am i kidding?!? Seriously i aint a saint, i'm just a small fry. Like i really care about the above if my below wish comes true!!!!
Anyway, starting tomorrow, i am going to 求神拜佛 that i'd strike toto soon!! if not, points (1) and (2) will haunt me till the end of November or longer? who knows?!?!
sian ah!!!!!!!
i think starting tomorrow morning, i must start to go to the void deck 神台 to 拜拜。must 拜 for the following.
好的来，坏的去！
1) Everything better go smoothly with the testing - as is now, struggling like mad
2) Lesser meetings, coz they can be super brain drain tiring!
oh well, who am i kidding?!? Seriously i aint a saint, i'm just a small fry. Like i really care about the above if my below wish comes true!!!!
Anyway, starting tomorrow, i am going to 求神拜佛 that i'd strike toto soon!! if not, points (1) and (2) will haunt me till the end of November or longer? who knows?!?!
sian ah!!!!!!!
Friday, August 21, 2009
just tired and flatting out again
it's only not long that i had a 5 days break during the National day long weekend. now, i'm entirely drained.
however, it seems like pressure gets things going.. for me at least.. time just flies by sooner than things can be done..
hmm.. bad signs
sian..
i wanna fly somewhere soon..
however, it seems like pressure gets things going.. for me at least.. time just flies by sooner than things can be done..
hmm.. bad signs
sian..
i wanna fly somewhere soon..
Saturday, August 08, 2009
kopitiam teh
lately, whenever i am home, my mom started buying teh for me as part of my morning breakfast.
it's not a habit for me to drink teh at home. teh to me is work sustenance - to get me through the mornings. before i injured my feet/ankle whichever people thought i hurt myself thanks to the way the sinseh bandaged my feet/legs/ankles.. whatever, i'd either buy my teh from 'Wang's cafe' at Suntec (well, the faithful morning of the fall, i just tabaoed the teh and thankfully, it didnt spill on me somehow..) or Ya Kun, depends on how lazy i'd be on that day..
so somehow, it became mom's habit to buy the teh for me and it's when i realised something.
i don't know how different kopitiam teh is from those of Wang's and YK, i suspect the caffeine level is much higher? coz i think my heart beat much faster when i finished the teh and i don't like the aftertaste, it lingers on forever.
the whole after drinking experience pretty much sux. maybe there's really not much difference, just that at home i have nothing to distract me, but even when i work from home, the aftermath is still unpleasant..
hmm.. in any case, no more kopitiam teh for me!
it's not a habit for me to drink teh at home. teh to me is work sustenance - to get me through the mornings. before i injured my feet/ankle whichever people thought i hurt myself thanks to the way the sinseh bandaged my feet/legs/ankles.. whatever, i'd either buy my teh from 'Wang's cafe' at Suntec (well, the faithful morning of the fall, i just tabaoed the teh and thankfully, it didnt spill on me somehow..) or Ya Kun, depends on how lazy i'd be on that day..
so somehow, it became mom's habit to buy the teh for me and it's when i realised something.
i don't know how different kopitiam teh is from those of Wang's and YK, i suspect the caffeine level is much higher? coz i think my heart beat much faster when i finished the teh and i don't like the aftertaste, it lingers on forever.
the whole after drinking experience pretty much sux. maybe there's really not much difference, just that at home i have nothing to distract me, but even when i work from home, the aftermath is still unpleasant..
hmm.. in any case, no more kopitiam teh for me!
Thursday, August 06, 2009
on a long break
ok, it's only 5 days. not that long but i think it's long enough.
kinda not going anywhere just need some recuperation time. somehow, last week seemed to have sucked all energy source outta me. i felt so tired at the end of the week and didnt feel that i had enough rest for this week which is ending.
decided on tues to request for Fri and Tues leave so that i'd have 5 in total.
what do i plan to do?
1) haircut, treatment and maybe a new colour
2) rest my feet
3) sleep, really need lots of it
4) do some detox, go on a no meat no carbo diet for two days? Hmm.. if i can make it
5) holidays? nah, still saving for the one in Nov
6) a little bit of shopping wont hurt i guess?
7) update my blog of coz.. a bit outdated liao
Well, simply doing nothing is good.
let me 休息，然后才可以走更长的路。前面的路好相有点遥远，感觉有点sian...
kinda not going anywhere just need some recuperation time. somehow, last week seemed to have sucked all energy source outta me. i felt so tired at the end of the week and didnt feel that i had enough rest for this week which is ending.
decided on tues to request for Fri and Tues leave so that i'd have 5 in total.
what do i plan to do?
1) haircut, treatment and maybe a new colour
2) rest my feet
3) sleep, really need lots of it
4) do some detox, go on a no meat no carbo diet for two days? Hmm.. if i can make it
5) holidays? nah, still saving for the one in Nov
6) a little bit of shopping wont hurt i guess?
7) update my blog of coz.. a bit outdated liao
Well, simply doing nothing is good.
let me 休息，然后才可以走更长的路。前面的路好相有点遥远，感觉有点sian...
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Recovery
i wonder if it's too soon to say this, but i see signs of recovery.
speedy it's not, yet i should be thankful that the fall has brought about a couple of good things.
i've reduced my spendings for the month of jul. Well, it's not over yet but i kinda doubt i'm going to burst my budget and some good news last week means that i might have more savings coming soon and can prolly get mom a nice bracelet of sorts. she mentioned that my aunt told her that her daughter should buy her some chain or ring or bracelet which she can wear to bring her good luck this year. i was thinking something from tiffany, but let's see how.
i also managed to complete Harry Potter - the Half Blood Prince. After a major reading hiatus, i'm finally picking up the book again. because the ending is such an anti climax, i have continued to Deathly Hallows. hopefully, i'd start reading again.
i finally discovered the fun-ess of working from home and that i can finally work from home which is good to a certain extend of not having to think of what to wear for the day.
at the same time, i got to spend more time with my mum and really extremely appreciate her constant companionship to the sin seh, pick me up to and from work etc. without her, i'd be totally helpless. Thanks ma!
also, my friends and colleagues whose care and concern made me feel so loved. i'm one lucky gal!
hmmm.. what i am not happy is that BTNR with the Tans and Cece have not materialised and i kinda doubt will happen anytime soon. and i definitely am freaking putting on the fats.
that's so not in line with my healthy month of june.. sighz, i guess i will postpone the plan to Aug and Sept.
say.. we've already crossed over the more than half of the year mark.. things are kinda zipping by.. hmmm... hopefully more good things will come and no more accidents for the coming months for me!
speedy it's not, yet i should be thankful that the fall has brought about a couple of good things.
i've reduced my spendings for the month of jul. Well, it's not over yet but i kinda doubt i'm going to burst my budget and some good news last week means that i might have more savings coming soon and can prolly get mom a nice bracelet of sorts. she mentioned that my aunt told her that her daughter should buy her some chain or ring or bracelet which she can wear to bring her good luck this year. i was thinking something from tiffany, but let's see how.
i also managed to complete Harry Potter - the Half Blood Prince. After a major reading hiatus, i'm finally picking up the book again. because the ending is such an anti climax, i have continued to Deathly Hallows. hopefully, i'd start reading again.
i finally discovered the fun-ess of working from home and that i can finally work from home which is good to a certain extend of not having to think of what to wear for the day.
at the same time, i got to spend more time with my mum and really extremely appreciate her constant companionship to the sin seh, pick me up to and from work etc. without her, i'd be totally helpless. Thanks ma!
also, my friends and colleagues whose care and concern made me feel so loved. i'm one lucky gal!
hmmm.. what i am not happy is that BTNR with the Tans and Cece have not materialised and i kinda doubt will happen anytime soon. and i definitely am freaking putting on the fats.
that's so not in line with my healthy month of june.. sighz, i guess i will postpone the plan to Aug and Sept.
say.. we've already crossed over the more than half of the year mark.. things are kinda zipping by.. hmmm... hopefully more good things will come and no more accidents for the coming months for me!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Conversation
i finally had a short conversation with the sin seh yesterday.
for the last two seshs, we have never spoken. he just do his stuff of making me grit my teeth and trying my best not to squeal with pain. so yesterday, i had to break the silence coz i kept on wondering why my left foot is not healing.
questions i asked in mandarin of course:
我的脚伤到那里？ 是不是整只脚？
to those questions, he only nodded his head whilst he continued rubbing my foot. damn pain sia.
so i continued my questioning spree.
是不是不可以站太多？是不是不可以走太多？
to that he said:
对！ 如果可以的话，穿跑鞋比较好。 你看，我们都穿跑鞋很舒服。对脚也比较好。
highly impossible that i'd wear running shoes when i go to work, but slippers yes coz i heart wearing slippers and flip flops.
anyway, it was quite an accomplishment. i think i might have to go back again. see how my feet is healing bah.
off to watch HEROES!!
for the last two seshs, we have never spoken. he just do his stuff of making me grit my teeth and trying my best not to squeal with pain. so yesterday, i had to break the silence coz i kept on wondering why my left foot is not healing.
questions i asked in mandarin of course:
我的脚伤到那里？ 是不是整只脚？
to those questions, he only nodded his head whilst he continued rubbing my foot. damn pain sia.
so i continued my questioning spree.
是不是不可以站太多？是不是不可以走太多？
to that he said:
对！ 如果可以的话，穿跑鞋比较好。 你看，我们都穿跑鞋很舒服。对脚也比较好。
highly impossible that i'd wear running shoes when i go to work, but slippers yes coz i heart wearing slippers and flip flops.
anyway, it was quite an accomplishment. i think i might have to go back again. see how my feet is healing bah.
off to watch HEROES!!
Monday, July 13, 2009
Patience
the week that just passed taught me something.
in a short couple of days i saw my mood went up, dropped to mid levels and fell into a bottomless pit. it also made me realised that i have never exactly changed with the way i dealt with things as well as i always want what i want and the way which i want it. i guess that's why i always made myself miserable when things dont turn out the way i expect it to be.
expectations, they can be so cruel at times..
i wonder if it's due to a certain level of pampering as such, this behaviour which then results in some childish thoughts and actions. i think it's quite likely and i am glad that i have some great pals who made me open my eyes bigger and confirm the 3 day mood swing was what i thought it to be - basically a little kid throwing some rubbish tantrums.
guess different people deal with things and issues in many different ways. i still have lots to learn. somehow, the mature thoughts of mine kinda refuse to present themselves and allow the child in me to accept how certain things and expectations should be and will be the way as it is.
Sunday was a good day to review my thoughts after chatting with a friend. i also realised that patience is important. sometimes there are reasons as to why certain events comes close to not being able to happen and i should have let nature takes its course, ie. not let it happen and wait for another possible time. waiting for another possible time would have made the day more fun and enjoyable.
i will surely take note of increasing my threshold of being patient, though i thought i was doing quite a good job. it could possibly be really worth it but i wouldn't exactly know anytime soon.. i guess?
in a short couple of days i saw my mood went up, dropped to mid levels and fell into a bottomless pit. it also made me realised that i have never exactly changed with the way i dealt with things as well as i always want what i want and the way which i want it. i guess that's why i always made myself miserable when things dont turn out the way i expect it to be.
expectations, they can be so cruel at times..
i wonder if it's due to a certain level of pampering as such, this behaviour which then results in some childish thoughts and actions. i think it's quite likely and i am glad that i have some great pals who made me open my eyes bigger and confirm the 3 day mood swing was what i thought it to be - basically a little kid throwing some rubbish tantrums.
guess different people deal with things and issues in many different ways. i still have lots to learn. somehow, the mature thoughts of mine kinda refuse to present themselves and allow the child in me to accept how certain things and expectations should be and will be the way as it is.
Sunday was a good day to review my thoughts after chatting with a friend. i also realised that patience is important. sometimes there are reasons as to why certain events comes close to not being able to happen and i should have let nature takes its course, ie. not let it happen and wait for another possible time. waiting for another possible time would have made the day more fun and enjoyable.
i will surely take note of increasing my threshold of being patient, though i thought i was doing quite a good job. it could possibly be really worth it but i wouldn't exactly know anytime soon.. i guess?
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Fallen
fell down today whilst i was on my way to work. was engrossed in texting cece and everything happened so fast, before i knew it i was on the ground.
first thoughts which came to my mind was 'die, i must have sprained both my ankles'. it was only logical coz i was wearing heels. i guess it's coz of that my brain started to trigger my mouth to say 'ouch ouch ouch..' which went on for sometime and some really kind passbys (two ladies) came to my rescue. though there were others who asked me if i was ok, i just kept saying 'ouch'. when i recovered from the shock, i was saying 'shit, shit, shit' actually at that point in time, i didn't feel much pain. the pain was in the fact that i thought i had sprained my ankles and can't walk. i was worried.
thanks to both ladies who helped, i was able to walk over to the side of the steps. having partially overcame the shock of what happened, i was able to joke but i couldnt stand up coz i felt a tad fainty and nauseous. it was however, kinda embarassing and i had to call CH to come 'rescue' me. he came along with Seok Gee and was thinking how this is to be handled. i finally called my mum and asked her to pick me up at candy empire. CH helped borrow a wheelchair and wheeled me to outback steak house to wait for my mum. SG waited with me and helped me to the car. all this while i was still ok. but walking came with pain on the left feet coz could feel the pressure of the blood all 'congregating' at that particular area of the feet.
made couple of calls to my insurance agent and then also to LC to ask for chinese sinseh recommendation. went to an english doc first and she touched and asked if there was pain here and there. she gave me 3 days MC. granted there were no hairline cracks (coz it would have been impossible for me to walk) and her suggestion is to put ice pack and elevate my feet when i reached home, i didn't feel comfy, so i headed to the chinese sinseh which LC recommended at Bedok Res.
walking started to become an ordeal and it was really becoming more painful. it was close to an hour wait but lucky i managed to get the number in time before the next timing which is 2pm. as much as i pysc myself as to how painful the rubbing or cracking would be, it was still painful as the sinseh rubbed and rubbed. hwah... no tears but damn pain. was quite heng there was no realigning of the bones.. i'd have screamed!
when i reached home, i was worried. had to climb stairs up and take lift and climb stairs down. i realised where i stay is really unfriendly to the crippled. it's impossible for anyone with wheelchair to move about!!!
suay as i was, there were a few lucky stuff. i had teh with me when i fell but the teh didnt spilled on me. i was still able to walk/limp. i was also not exactly injured at any other parts of my body. i also brought my slippers coz i was supposed to go with Sook for pedi tonight.
really appreciate the help of my colleagues and strangers and my mum who stayed with me the whole time and helping me walk and paying for the bills first. i was too busy dealing with the pain etc to think of anything. also to friends who sent their well wishes and tell me to take care.
sighz, i'm careless yet again. this better be a good lesson for me. i'm actually feeling better now and apparently the chinese meds is actually pretty darn good. i took the painkillers but it didnt exactly help me when i woke up i was still feeling loads of pain. the chinese meds made a whole load of diff man! it's like i can walk proper and better. will stick to the cheena meds and rest lots.
time to do more exercise and lose more weight!!
Saturday, July 04, 2009
Are you resigning?
woke up this morning by an sms 'Claudia, heard you resigning?'
hmm.. first of all, my name is Claudine. It ends with 'ine'.
This name wasn't given to me when i was born. my parents are very traditional people and they do not see the need of a Christian name. Also, they aren't Christian. So i went by my actual name 涵欣 throughout my childhood and early teens.
I have toyed with Christian names like 'Yvonne' or 'Christina' when my cousin first told me the Christian name she had decided for herself and i thought it was really cool. Those names never stuck and people still call me by my dialect name which everyone had problems getting it right.
i had a terrible time when i was in Pre-U not because of my name, but because political i was in a super political class. Days dragged on and on like the 3 years will never end. I hated those 3 years of my life. it was the most miserable and saddest period i have ever had. nevertheless, those days finally came to an end. of coz, since i am not academically inclined on all the subjects i've done during then, i was unable to go to any of the local Unis. So i went to SIM after much begging to my parents coz the course fees werent cheap. anyway, my initial choice was to go to an art school which still was not the conventional route to success in life then and was entirely being frowned upon by my parents. They actually preferred that i went for a remiser course instead, thankfully i was below the required age to take the course.
when i was taking my break from As to Uni, i decided that i have to put the Pre Uni days behind. I was reading a lot of books then and came across this name 'Claudine' and during then, i decided this will be the name which will stick with me. it kinda signified putting the past behind and looking forward to something new. it felt like a new lease of life for me. Dramatic as it sounded, i felt that things will be different and yes things did.
i never did check the meaning of the name then until much later and i accepted the fact that people are most likely to associate the name to that famous model as well. it was ok for me, in fact, it was occasionally an ice breaker.
Of late, i have been asked questions like 'You are leaving? When?' and 'Are you moving to another department?' this was after an official email have been sent out regarding the successful movements of some colleagues who are on an 'inter department exchange program' of sorts and one of them happened to have similar sounding name as mine. Perhaps i should have recorded a message (oh yah, i got calls too). or typed a template in my sms drafts or an auto reply on my email when mails with words like 'you are leaving' are being detected.
it's quite disappointing that people don't get your name correct, especially people who have worked with you for many years etc. when i jokingly told the peepz who asked me that i've worked with them for so many years and you guys don't even know the spelling of my name?! they said they wanted to confirm that it's not me.
oh wellz, it's me and my expectations again and being a tad anal about it.
but it's interesting that people sometimes can also suspect that the top most level personnel of our department can type something wrong. hmmm.. not me. i believe she's merticulous and even if she says something that is out of the ordinary, i'd believe her.
hmm.. first of all, my name is Claudine. It ends with 'ine'.
This name wasn't given to me when i was born. my parents are very traditional people and they do not see the need of a Christian name. Also, they aren't Christian. So i went by my actual name 涵欣 throughout my childhood and early teens.
I have toyed with Christian names like 'Yvonne' or 'Christina' when my cousin first told me the Christian name she had decided for herself and i thought it was really cool. Those names never stuck and people still call me by my dialect name which everyone had problems getting it right.
i had a terrible time when i was in Pre-U not because of my name, but because political i was in a super political class. Days dragged on and on like the 3 years will never end. I hated those 3 years of my life. it was the most miserable and saddest period i have ever had. nevertheless, those days finally came to an end. of coz, since i am not academically inclined on all the subjects i've done during then, i was unable to go to any of the local Unis. So i went to SIM after much begging to my parents coz the course fees werent cheap. anyway, my initial choice was to go to an art school which still was not the conventional route to success in life then and was entirely being frowned upon by my parents. They actually preferred that i went for a remiser course instead, thankfully i was below the required age to take the course.
when i was taking my break from As to Uni, i decided that i have to put the Pre Uni days behind. I was reading a lot of books then and came across this name 'Claudine' and during then, i decided this will be the name which will stick with me. it kinda signified putting the past behind and looking forward to something new. it felt like a new lease of life for me. Dramatic as it sounded, i felt that things will be different and yes things did.
i never did check the meaning of the name then until much later and i accepted the fact that people are most likely to associate the name to that famous model as well. it was ok for me, in fact, it was occasionally an ice breaker.
Of late, i have been asked questions like 'You are leaving? When?' and 'Are you moving to another department?' this was after an official email have been sent out regarding the successful movements of some colleagues who are on an 'inter department exchange program' of sorts and one of them happened to have similar sounding name as mine. Perhaps i should have recorded a message (oh yah, i got calls too). or typed a template in my sms drafts or an auto reply on my email when mails with words like 'you are leaving' are being detected.
it's quite disappointing that people don't get your name correct, especially people who have worked with you for many years etc. when i jokingly told the peepz who asked me that i've worked with them for so many years and you guys don't even know the spelling of my name?! they said they wanted to confirm that it's not me.
oh wellz, it's me and my expectations again and being a tad anal about it.
but it's interesting that people sometimes can also suspect that the top most level personnel of our department can type something wrong. hmmm.. not me. i believe she's merticulous and even if she says something that is out of the ordinary, i'd believe her.
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Perfect Eyesight
hmm.. how long have i taken this for granted? i think too long..
of late, not sure if it's due to too much staring at the comp at work or using my laptop for bejeweled tornaments trying to break those high scores, i realised my right eye is starting to have some weird syndrome.
it's starting to twitch a lot
it's starting to see some blurry/fuzzy forms surrounding the lights
worried? yeah, i sure am. never happened to me before and i don't really want anything to happen.
i decided to try to turn in earlier and reduce my usage of the lappy and try not to stare so near to my office laptop and also to look at more green stuff.
sure hope i'm in time with the rectification process.
2009 seems like not very good year for my health.
btw, it's already July.. somehow this year, time DOES fly by faster than any other..
of late, not sure if it's due to too much staring at the comp at work or using my laptop for bejeweled tornaments trying to break those high scores, i realised my right eye is starting to have some weird syndrome.
it's starting to twitch a lot
it's starting to see some blurry/fuzzy forms surrounding the lights
worried? yeah, i sure am. never happened to me before and i don't really want anything to happen.
i decided to try to turn in earlier and reduce my usage of the lappy and try not to stare so near to my office laptop and also to look at more green stuff.
sure hope i'm in time with the rectification process.
2009 seems like not very good year for my health.
btw, it's already July.. somehow this year, time DOES fly by faster than any other..
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
a new fragrance
i usually don't venture away much from the usual fragrances i use. not until one day when Cece and me were on a perfume smelling spree.
there was a promotion at paragon two weeks back and the perfume brand was chloe. the name of the perfume was Chloe too.
i remember from a far, the smell was pleasant, rather attractive and pretty different. i usually won't ask what's the base for a perfume and i'm more inclined towards the more citrus and refreshing types. i didn't ask for the base, Cece asked about it and we were told the base was honey.
hmm.. this was one sweet smelling honey! it's really quite long lasting given that i can still smell tinges of it after i showered. really value for money! but i like it that it's not the refreshing kind yet still kinda stand out of sorts. quite subtle and i can smell it all the time with just one sprit on my hair. I think it's quite light too.
haven't been that addicted to a smell for quite sometime, this is my current favourite :D
there was a promotion at paragon two weeks back and the perfume brand was chloe. the name of the perfume was Chloe too.
i remember from a far, the smell was pleasant, rather attractive and pretty different. i usually won't ask what's the base for a perfume and i'm more inclined towards the more citrus and refreshing types. i didn't ask for the base, Cece asked about it and we were told the base was honey.
hmm.. this was one sweet smelling honey! it's really quite long lasting given that i can still smell tinges of it after i showered. really value for money! but i like it that it's not the refreshing kind yet still kinda stand out of sorts. quite subtle and i can smell it all the time with just one sprit on my hair. I think it's quite light too.
haven't been that addicted to a smell for quite sometime, this is my current favourite :D
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